2018年12月21日 星期五

The Dinner at the Hua’s House


As the evening breeze ruffles the leaves and trees under the milky twilight, the noise on the street gradually dies down as people hurrying home for supper. For many, it is just a typical autumn nightfall. However, for the Huas, it is a lovely day celebrating both the special reunion of Mulan and her family and the delightful arrival of the handsome general, Li-shiang.
The house is especially clean and tidy that day with hardly any layer of dust on the shelf or window frame. Candles with tender fragrance are lit at every corner of the dining room. On the rectangular dining table spread the treasured yellowish table cloth, which is embellished with embroidery of birds and flowers, reserved only for New Year’s Eve and other special occasions. Besides the table, Mama’s favorite white and blue porcelain vase is placed with fresh tulips and lilies.
Despite all the splendid decorations in the room, the most appealing of all is the mouthwatering dishes made by Mama and Granny. Even before they are brought to the table, the enticing aroma from the kitchen has been tempting people to dig in. Right in the middle of the table served the “Fo-Tiao-Qiang”. Like a bowl full of treasures, the soup is of the color of amber with rich ingredients such as: chicken, mushroom, scallop, quail eggs and taro lying visible underneath the surface. To the left of the soup serves the “Creamy Cabbage Baked”. A thick layer of white cream covers the cabbage like snow and the midst of the surface is baked slightly golden brown. To the right, “Pineapple Shrimp Balls” are arranged neatly in a round plate with a little sprinkled pepper and some mayonnaise on the top, making them look like Christmas decoration.
Other than the appetizing aroma of the dishes, the dining room is filled with the delightful laughter and ongoing conversation of the Huas and Li-shiang. Mama and Granny collapse into giggles like teenage girls at the amusing stories told by the general. Papa smiles and occasionally gives his comments. However, Mulan just sits there and eats her meal quietly with relish, curving up her lips like waxing crescent. She likes to enjoy this sense of serenity among the revelry. The dim light of the candles, the savoring taste reminding her so much of her childhood, and the familiar chatter of the family all makes her feel secure and at home. She does not realize where she leaves off their conversation or when Li-shiang begins the anecdotes about her during war time. She is drawn back to the table from her tranquil world at a sudden burst of exclamation of her folks. She lifts up her face to find Li-shiang winking at her, and her folks giggling from the back. Subsequently, she feels an abrupt rush of warmness in both of her cheeks.
With the evening slowly fading into night, the house is illuminated with joy and coziness. It has been a long time since the Hua last share a dinner together.  Mulan feels wonderful to be home again; all the more so to be home with her favorite person, Li-shiang, whose sense of humor she likes best. It is truly a special night for the Huas and Li-shiang that will leave a lasting memory in each of their mind.

If you could live a day of any person, whose life would you choose?


If I could live a day of any person, my choice would be the Taiwanese beauty/travel Youtuber named Serene, who is now a senior studying at Duke University. What is so charming about her life you may ask? She is the exact embodiment of someone I dream to become. She is a fashionable young lady with a positive mind, an A+ yet humble student whose learning goes beyond textbooks, and a traveler who inspires people. It is incredible to see someone like her at my age  have already accomplished so much in life! I always feel encouraged when I read her stories because they reminded me the possibilities. And I have to strive for a better self.
Maintaining both a graceful appearance and an excellent academic performance is a goal I have always found it hard to achieve. Since both of them require a lot of time and effort, there never seems to be enough time for me to do so. However, after learning about Serene’s life, I realized that I could train myself with a better time management skills. According to Serene’s posts and videos, the secret to a graceful appearance is living a stable lifestyle with good time management. For example, she begins her day with her daily beauty routine to set herself in the best condition. And she makes a habit to always plan out her day ahead and list out the things she must get done. A well-planned schedule and a stable habit not only reduce one’s pressure but also achieve a better working quality. Hence, the dream of being both beauty and an A+ student can be attained.
Of course, a graceful appearance itself is not enough; one’s confidence long-lasting charm.
*** Please focus on Serene since she is the main character of your essay. Avoid lengthy stories of yourself.
Growing up, I was often confused by the worldly standard of our society, in which they judge an individual’s success in terms of his or her academic performance. Ironically, my good grade in school never helps me figure out who I want to be but even more lost in the score competition instead. Over the years, I found myself becoming less and less confident struggling to find the right place for myself and living up to the expectation of the society. However, Serene seems never lost. Despite being an A+ student, who graduated from Taipei First Girl High School and entered a prominent college like Duke University, her confidence does not devour her humbleness. Instead of perceiving grades as an indicator of success, she considers good grades as only an approach to a goal that one wishes to achieve. For example, she understands that her dream of becoming a marine biologist can only be achieved by entering a good college specializing in Marin Biology, so she works hard to obtain good grades but she never lets her glittering performance in the competition of grade blind her from seeing her goal of life.
 The last but not the least thing I admire Serene is her way of writing about her life. While most of my journals are just plain records of my life, hers always come with a kind of positivity. I especially like the story Serene shared about her intern experience in New York. Language blocks and cultural differences had resulted in a lot of frustrations for her. Growing up as an A+ student, she found it hard to adjust in the beginning. But it eventually dawned on her that every journey she takes, every stony road she crosses only transforms her into a better self. Words have power that they not only help you keep a vivid record of the ups and downs in life, but also serve as a mean to make sense of our life.
In reality, it is impossible to live somebody else’s life, and also no need to wish to become somebody else. Though Serene’s stories have demonstrated the idealistic life I have dreamed of, I have come to realize that that the point is not living the fantastic a life, but creating the dreamlike life with my own hands. With a good time management skill, confidence, and positivity, I am sure I can live a full and extraordinary life as Serene.

[Update]



2018年7月23日 星期一

如何增進Alice大學學習效益

本以為很難的東西,列出一個金字塔結構後,發現似乎不適遙遙無期的目標了!

計畫的第一步,就從在每個月開始之前學會擬定當月的計畫吧!
很多事想做,所以也要懂得安排時間!

剩下三年倒數的時間 Alice加油!

2018年7月15日 星期日

Magical Challenge Day2.3.4

Ooops
A lot had been going on this weekend
And among them, there are certainly a lot of things to be grateful of

1. a nice talk with Ruby on Saturday night.

我從來都不知道,原來一個自認為平凡的人,也會害怕跟走過大風大浪的人聊天,只因為擔心自己描述出來的生活不夠精采或是不能對對方所說的一切感同身受。
但在平凡中成長的你,最後竟然是在感情上轟轟烈烈了。最困難的不是化解人跟人之間的衝突,而是自己心中的拉鋸。希望在這段僵持的歲月中,上帝能慢慢觸碰你們每個人的心,甚至是讓每個人心中的那一道又一道的傷痕中嵌入金繼。

2. for the first time ever, we finally get down to the "real problem" in our gathering

原本使你安心的地方 漸漸轉為壓力的來源
我們看似很知道彼此的一切,卻未必真的了解彼此

3. this is a funny one, but I'm didn't know I would be this happy when Mr.L finally talked to me. It's been two weeks of not hearing anything from him.

雖然知道這個人也有成熟穩重的一面,但多數時候(至少在我身邊的時候),比較像是一個讓人操心的弟弟,但也真的感受到工作所帶給他的壓力了。
他說「不管跟你還是團契的關係,都很難有近一步的發展了」
這...還真是一句意味深長的話,也許是慢慢步入社會而感受到壓力的抒發,也有可能是一種道別。
不過這次,我不想給自己機會了,就慢慢把一些想法收起來吧!

4. Came up with some idea about how to tutor Abby.
5. a nice talk with Ruby on Sunday afternoon
6. delicious mung bean soup
7. Lots of goodies from the garden of Abby's family
8. smooth playing on the piano during 2nd service
9. though I should have done this on my first day of college, I finally wrote myself a "Must-Do-In-College-List"


畢業前 必完成


 今天是7/15,大二要升上大三的暑假。
這一兩天跟剛畢業的蓉姊聊天,從他豐富的生活中發現有好多好事還在我的大學「必完成」清單中留白,明明還是個可以放膽作夢的年紀,卻過得像無趣的退休生活,真是不應該。

所以我要好好地列一個清單,不怕此時此刻的今天,他們看起來多麼遙不可及,多麼的中二,我也要看見它們實現。



1.          找到一個有歸屬感的社團

如果大學生活現在才真的開始,會不會太晚呢?
回首這兩年死命準備轉學考的日子,其實背後一個更深的期待應該也是希望大學生活能重來,能用一個新的方式來彌補那些我曾經錯過的。
但就像人生無法從來的道理一樣,與其從來,不如pick up from where you are。

雖然我常常覺得孤獨是因為我沒有在為建立關係而努力,但在這一年修西概的過程中,我也發現光靠努力是不夠的,也需要有心中的連結才能維繫一段關係。

那麼開學後,不彷就從自己原先的興趣下手


2.          交男朋友

呵呵,這個就不贅述了


3.          累積翻譯經驗

因為以後真的很想成為跟紫醬一樣厲害的口譯,所以想在這幾年中找到練習的機會。

4.          考過N1

Well…很明顯只有N3的能力並不能幹嘛 (而且看日劇也還不能100%聽懂)
想把日文練得至少跟英文一樣熟練的程度

5.          西班牙語:讀完B1B2範圍

幾天前開始重讀西班牙文,發現以前在RMS建立的底子竟然都還在(好像寫在我骨頭裡一樣) 雖然不敢說自己有天份,但如果上帝曾經在我的生命中寫下這樣的經驗與恩賜,我不想讓這份禮物放在角落沾灰塵。

6.          語言交換

幾天前才發現師大有這個資源,在學期間要好好來利用!
如果可以的話希望能先從西班牙語開始。

7.          跟同學/朋友一起出國



8.          去夜唱



9.          去酒吧



10.      之後維持straight As

但是不要成為書呆子,拜託你!

11.      站在台上報告能言之有物,不再怯場

回首過去兩年,不管上台報告還是在教會報告,都覺得自己的表現很需要加強,希望能紮紮實實的從好好寫演講稿開始練起。

12.      修法語/德語

純粹想要在學一個日西以外的語言。

13.      修拉丁語

修了西概後得到的啟發。

14.      體重降到60

神哪~拜託了 我還想嫁出去        。

15.      再忙碌也要記錄生活

我想持續當個有溫度的人,也不希望迷失在忙碌裡而忘記那些生活中的小確幸。

16.      再忙碌也要撥時間看書(小說/報章/工具書)


17.      彈柴可夫斯基協奏曲

不知道能不能達成 but dare to dream big

18.      去外島旅遊

對於一個生活圈只有台北、台中的都市籠中鳥來說,其實真的很渴望能走出去看看。

19.      每天讀經禱告

上帝把拔抱歉,前面清單列得太開心都忘了最重要的事了!!
今年雖然也是因為很屬世的理由才來認真讀聖經,但我也在這過程中感覺自己跟你越來越親近,也真實地感受到被你從黑暗領到充滿希望的光亮中的平安。但我也知道這份平安,如果沒有仔細地維護,很快就會消失。

所以死纏爛打也好,我跟定你了!

20. 對自己好些,拒絕當黃臉婆

好了!! 前面都以讀書為理由沒有好好保養自己!
我的野心就是在走出校園之後讓人繼續問我 「你現在大一還大二??」



列到這裡似乎有些熱血沸騰了,也順便列個30歲前夢想清單好了 XD

1.          環島
2.          去歐洲
3.          日本打工度假
4.          西班牙語檢定C1過關
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持續增加中

2017年12月9日 星期六

[Rough Draft] Accidental Asian

從《偶然生為亞裔人》跟讀者們相見的那一刻起,劉柏川便清楚表明了”亞裔人”的身分,對他而言,純屬偶然。他甚至以香蕉做為比喻自嘲,說自己跟中華文化的關係僅止於外貌。他始終認為自己是美國人,並表示願意對美國獻上自己所有的忠誠。

這一番話,在許多台灣讀者聽來,恐怕是大逆不道、不懂得飲水思源的言論! 再嚴重一點,還可能招來一波:「被邪惡帝國毒化的孽子」的罵名。

但這也正是劉柏川的認知的「同化」。
「同化」對劉柏川而言,並不是次文化慘遭主流文化吞噬的浩劫,而是兩者交融後的合而為一。當他父母那一輩帶來的中華文化正在受美國影響的同時,美國也在被中華文化影響。換句話說,同化就是文化之間的磨合。藉由消除相異之處,進而成為一個無膚色、無血統、也無髮色區別的世界大同。

以「新猶太人」這個章節為例,柏川特別比較了際遇和價值觀都與亞裔人雷同的猶太人,猶太人在很多方面都可以說是亞裔人的前車之鑑。舉例來說,現在的亞裔人時常被貼上會因為重視教育或較優秀的學業表現,而被貼上「書呆子」或「拼命三郎」的標籤,而這再數十年前,也同樣發生在猶太人身上。但若更細究「書呆子、拼命三郎」的背景因素,便會發現這些根本無關於膚色,而是一種全人類的常態。

一個人離鄉背井來到陌生國度,為謀得更好的發展而努力,不都是人之常情嗎?

曾經,北美13州的新移民是這樣,猶太人也是這樣,亞裔人也不例外。大家同樣都想為了自己的未來努力,但社會中的某些體制的確對某一些文化有利,而對另一些文化不利。

章節末段,柏川寫下這番話: 「猶太人同化了,我們知道;變成美國人了。但美國也同化了:變得猶太了。 你可以寫一本書談猶太人對美國文化的影響。但寫成之後,你會發現所寫的不過是關於而二十世紀的美國。」

雖然這現象隱約暗示著亞裔人總有一天也會像猶太人一樣,不需要再計較自己是移民第幾代,也不用再用盡力氣向外人證明自己,原生文化和美國會自然而然的磨合與交融中,產生一個新的國家、新的民族。

雖然同化歷程不免流失部分原生文化,卻也是擦出新火花的機會。面對這完全陌生、不屬於任何一個分類的文化的孤寂,將其視為「杯中水半滿」還是「杯中水半空」,卻也都是個人的選擇。

劉柏川在全書的敘事中沒有太多情緒成分。整部作品可以說是以一個相當嚴謹且理性的方式寫成。這或許跟他的歷史系背景有密切相關,書中其實不難發現,劉柏川就像歷史學家一樣,總以懷疑態度看待事情,並用佐證的方式推翻他認為不合理的刻板印象。

不同於Woman Warrior或Joy Luck Club,劉柏川並沒有在身分認同的掙扎上做太多的著墨,也沒有花太多的篇幅抒發沒有繼承中華文化的遺憾,更沒有寫種族不平等待遇的辛酸血淚史。

他想傳達的概念很簡單,同化並不是失根,而是兩個不同文化交融而形成的新興民族。

看完了《偶然生為亞裔人》,讓我有機會再次省思不少問題。
儘管,我不敢斷定種族問題不存在,但這世界是不是太常以"種族議題"來搪塞而沒有釐清問題的本質? 面對這種可能過度簡化的問題,我是人云亦云呢? 還是有經過深思熟慮?


而「半杯水」的比喻,則可以說是一個深刻的提醒,雖然我身上並沒有身分認同的掙扎。但也另一個解讀可能是,儘管生命中有些不盡完美的缺口,我們可以是「半滿」的積極態度去擁抱它,也可以是「半空」的消極態度來埋怨它。

小確幸

今天一起出公差 雖然什麼工作也沒完成
但他說:「也許公器私用了一些,但今天最主要的目的是來跟你聊天。」

很欣慰的是 雖然他老是被小綠茶綁住 但他也時不時的在為我辯護
我走的每一步他其實都默默看在眼裡 甚至是那些舉步維艱的步伐…
現在回想真的很不可思議 我昨晚還真的一口氣把所有所有

我以前不爽他的原因 都真誠的跟他坦白

那些我心中的陰影

甚至是自己覺得自己最醜陋的一面

但我很驚訝的是 他卻一點也不覺得醜

即使在8月當眾攤牌之後,他對我的觀感其實一點都沒有改變
反而覺得我很棒 願意和自己坦白 面對最不想面對的事情

如果真的要說,他說他會比較討厭小綠茶 (腦筋死死的又一直要吧著人)

至於開學到現在 我跟他之間間斷的原因 他也很真實的說給我聽了(剛開學忙宿營、在台大的很多壓力

這樣說可能蠢蠢的,可是昨晚對我來說像是一個“失而復得”的感覺

昨晚之後,我也覺得像這樣

沒有跨越曖昧的相處

最幸福

就好像回到我們大一 那個對彼此信任很深 什麼事都能真實分享的感覺

或許這才是我目前最想要的吧


淡淡的幸福